True friends to the end?

The amount of times I've heard growing up, people say only time will tell who your true friends are - and I'm starting to realise how very true that saying is.

It's natural for people when they grow up they tend to spread out, start a family or choose a quieter pace of life, but you always think that there'll be certain amigos that will make the extra effort to stay in contact and have regular catch ups with. Even though I do still make an effort with all my friends, I'm getting to the stage now where I can't help but feel that with certain people I am doing this all in vain.

Only this weekend I was having a heart to heart down the local talking about someone who I thought would always be there to share life with, someone I grew up with, who has now made it very clear I don't fit in their life anymore owing to the fact that I have to be kept separate from all her 'couple' friends as I may not be able to 'cope' with it. Whilst I was sitting there in the pub, I realised I was crying into the shoulder of someone who has actually turned out to be one of my best friends and I never would have thought it in a million years. Someone who I had known when in college and then drifted apart from - only to drift back in contact with again a couple of years ago and he's proved that he is growing into a rather solid rock.

Life has it's ups and downs and I believe in taking every day as it comes, but every now and again it's always nice to see a shining star that brings a twinkle to your eye and brightens your day into a genuine smile that reaches the eyes.

Mountains & Molehills.......

Do you ever have one of those days when you find yourself asking, 'Why on earth did I even bother getting up today?' It just seems like everything is a mission, anything that can go wrong does go wrong and it feels like you just really shouldn't have bothered anyway?

I really am of the notion at the moment that time could almost possibly be going backwards, due to the fact it is taking me so long to process everything. My brain feels like it has got stuck in slow motion and the only thing keeping me going at the moment is a nice cool glass of vino (or two) with some great company tonight!

I just feel so run down at the moment, I really am finding it hard to concentrate. I seem to keep putting my foot in it lately and saying the wrong thing, thus offending most people who come into close proximity of me. If that is not bad enough, I have also been told by a close friend that I am not doing enough as a mate and I should be trying harder to make more time available for her and for others.

As much as I love my friends and family, sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball and close the world off to avoid all the dramas of everyday life. I really am a simple person as heart - what you see is what you get and I don't understand why people get so upset and uptight about things that are perfectly fine left the way they are.

As the famous slogan goes, 'Frankie says relax...........!' and that's exactly what I intend to do - lets leave the mountains out of the equation and focus on the molehills as the perfect little mounds of earth that they are.