Do you ever have one of those days when you find yourself asking, 'Why on earth did I even bother getting up today?' It just seems like everything is a mission, anything that can go wrong does go wrong and it feels like you just really shouldn't have bothered anyway?
I really am of the notion at the moment that time could almost possibly be going backwards, due to the fact it is taking me so long to process everything. My brain feels like it has got stuck in slow motion and the only thing keeping me going at the moment is a nice cool glass of vino (or two) with some great company tonight!
I just feel so run down at the moment, I really am finding it hard to concentrate. I seem to keep putting my foot in it lately and saying the wrong thing, thus offending most people who come into close proximity of me. If that is not bad enough, I have also been told by a close friend that I am not doing enough as a mate and I should be trying harder to make more time available for her and for others.
As much as I love my friends and family, sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball and close the world off to avoid all the dramas of everyday life. I really am a simple person as heart - what you see is what you get and I don't understand why people get so upset and uptight about things that are perfectly fine left the way they are.
As the famous slogan goes, 'Frankie says relax...........!' and that's exactly what I intend to do - lets leave the mountains out of the equation and focus on the molehills as the perfect little mounds of earth that they are.
Friday 29 October 2010
Wednesday 27 October 2010
Fatty Cat Intruder Alert
Don't you just hate it when it's the middle of the night, your quite comfy and sound asleep in your bed, when all of a sudden you are awaken by your companion because you have a intruder in the house.....
Now, what I am talking about is my cat Tigger, jumping on my face at 4am because the fatty cat from three houses up the road has entered in through his cat flap - again! - and is not only eating his food, but is also jumping on my sofa and stealing Tigger's pet toys in the process.
When I say fat, this cat is a real life black version of the TV character 'Garfield' and it does make me wonder how the hell he can fit through my flap! I'm sure his owners are feeding him on burgers and full fat milk, as this cat is the fur ball equivalent of obese - and he is a bruiser with it too! He swans into my house and bully's my cat if I don't get up and shew him back out into the wilderness.
But fatty cat is also clever - he knows if he leaves it 10 minutes, I would have turned the lights back off and trudged back upstairs to my bed and will already be dozing again - which is when he tries to sneak back in....
I have gone to some drastic measures to keep the fatty cat out, but so far to no avail. I have tried to border up the cat flap of a night time - which does admittedly stops him getting in, but also stops my cat getting out, thus resulting in Tigger jumping on my face at 4am when he needs the toilet.
Next I tried to stop putting food down of a night time, which also resulted in Tigger jumping on my face about 4am when hunger striked - and I found he also proceeded to leave quite a few bite marks in my cheek, which I can only assume was the side effect from lack of food!
My latest attempt was to bring Tigger's food upstairs into the bedroom out of the way, but it appears that Fatty Cat has no limits and not only comes into my bedroom seeking out his nightly nibbles, but also jumps on the bed too - proceeding in - yep, you've guessed it - Tigger jumping on my face to wake me up at 4am!
I refuse to be beaten by the fatty cat and one of these days I will have my comeuppance, but I think it is a pretty safe bet to say that no matter what I do, my cat obviously finds delight - in jumping on my face at 4am!
Now, what I am talking about is my cat Tigger, jumping on my face at 4am because the fatty cat from three houses up the road has entered in through his cat flap - again! - and is not only eating his food, but is also jumping on my sofa and stealing Tigger's pet toys in the process.
When I say fat, this cat is a real life black version of the TV character 'Garfield' and it does make me wonder how the hell he can fit through my flap! I'm sure his owners are feeding him on burgers and full fat milk, as this cat is the fur ball equivalent of obese - and he is a bruiser with it too! He swans into my house and bully's my cat if I don't get up and shew him back out into the wilderness.
But fatty cat is also clever - he knows if he leaves it 10 minutes, I would have turned the lights back off and trudged back upstairs to my bed and will already be dozing again - which is when he tries to sneak back in....
I have gone to some drastic measures to keep the fatty cat out, but so far to no avail. I have tried to border up the cat flap of a night time - which does admittedly stops him getting in, but also stops my cat getting out, thus resulting in Tigger jumping on my face at 4am when he needs the toilet.
Next I tried to stop putting food down of a night time, which also resulted in Tigger jumping on my face about 4am when hunger striked - and I found he also proceeded to leave quite a few bite marks in my cheek, which I can only assume was the side effect from lack of food!
My latest attempt was to bring Tigger's food upstairs into the bedroom out of the way, but it appears that Fatty Cat has no limits and not only comes into my bedroom seeking out his nightly nibbles, but also jumps on the bed too - proceeding in - yep, you've guessed it - Tigger jumping on my face to wake me up at 4am!
I refuse to be beaten by the fatty cat and one of these days I will have my comeuppance, but I think it is a pretty safe bet to say that no matter what I do, my cat obviously finds delight - in jumping on my face at 4am!
Tuesday 26 October 2010
Indonesia Earthquake
Having just got back from my travels to Indonesia a month ago, I was most shocked to read the following in the BBC news:
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-pacific-11626242
Having experienced an earthquake whilst out there on my first night, it's surprising how quickly they come on with no warning at all. Whilst the locals were making light of it that it was only a small quake, I can only imagine how terrified they must have felt having to experience this bigger one that triggered a tsunami - and it's chilling how it evokes memories from the disaster in 2004....
I really do hope they find some if not the majority of those people missing. The locals I met on holiday were the nicest, humblest people I have ever met & although it is inevitable living on the ring of fire, I do hope they don't get any more tremors there any time soon.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-pacific-11626242
Having experienced an earthquake whilst out there on my first night, it's surprising how quickly they come on with no warning at all. Whilst the locals were making light of it that it was only a small quake, I can only imagine how terrified they must have felt having to experience this bigger one that triggered a tsunami - and it's chilling how it evokes memories from the disaster in 2004....
I really do hope they find some if not the majority of those people missing. The locals I met on holiday were the nicest, humblest people I have ever met & although it is inevitable living on the ring of fire, I do hope they don't get any more tremors there any time soon.
Friday 22 October 2010
Wishing my life away.....
Do you ever get moments in your life when you feel you are just wishing your life away, without really realising you are doing it?
I am sitting here on a Friday afternoon, having wished this moment could have come three days ago, pleading for the weekend to land and also for payday to hurry up. It's not like I'm not contented with my job role - I am actually, as far as job roles go, quite happy with what I am doing. I work for a small company so get a wide variety of job tasks to do, but at the same time spend my time clock watching and wishing it would go that bit faster.
Ever since I got back from my travels I feel like there is something missing from my life. It's almost like my little personal world has stagnated and is missing that all important 'oomph' to get up and go with a bit of zest. I know it's out there somewhere, but just don't know what the missing 'bit' is!
The more I try to think about what it is I actually want, the more confused I get. Like last weekend for example - I've been saying for ages now that I just want a bit of peace and quiet, with a lazy weekend at home and no responsibilities. But once I got it, I realised I didn't actually want it, finding that I was profoundly bored by Saturday afternoon.
I wish I had a fairy godmother to grab me by the scruples, give me a firm kick up the proverbial and open my eyes to what it is I actually want and feel I am missing from my life. Either that, or a large glass of vino and a chocolate bar should do the trick of a quick fix until I can actually figure things out.......
I am sitting here on a Friday afternoon, having wished this moment could have come three days ago, pleading for the weekend to land and also for payday to hurry up. It's not like I'm not contented with my job role - I am actually, as far as job roles go, quite happy with what I am doing. I work for a small company so get a wide variety of job tasks to do, but at the same time spend my time clock watching and wishing it would go that bit faster.
Ever since I got back from my travels I feel like there is something missing from my life. It's almost like my little personal world has stagnated and is missing that all important 'oomph' to get up and go with a bit of zest. I know it's out there somewhere, but just don't know what the missing 'bit' is!
The more I try to think about what it is I actually want, the more confused I get. Like last weekend for example - I've been saying for ages now that I just want a bit of peace and quiet, with a lazy weekend at home and no responsibilities. But once I got it, I realised I didn't actually want it, finding that I was profoundly bored by Saturday afternoon.
I wish I had a fairy godmother to grab me by the scruples, give me a firm kick up the proverbial and open my eyes to what it is I actually want and feel I am missing from my life. Either that, or a large glass of vino and a chocolate bar should do the trick of a quick fix until I can actually figure things out.......
Wednesday 20 October 2010
It's a hard knock life.......
So, the chancellor is today unveiling the country's planned spending cuts, the biggest since the second world war - but what does it all mean for the average John Doe?
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-politics-11579979
As if life is not hard enough already - constantly tightening the purse strings, cutting out as many luxuries and personal items as possible, paying over the odds for, well, just about everything out there and now it looks like it is about to get alot worse for the average person who lives month to month on a budget.
I'm sure that this will have absolutely no effect on people on a high wage salary and the chancellor has put measures in place to protect people on a low income, but what about the average Londoner who doesn't qualify as a low-income earner but still struggles through every day life...
I think the future is looking very bleak and I feel especially sorry for all those working in the public sector who will be affected by the 490,000 planned job loses - it kind of puts the recent strikes by the TFL into perspective!
After seeing the proposals, I guess I should be lucky that I managed to get on the property ladder before the recession started and that I have a relatively stable-ish job, but who knows what the future will hold. For the foreseeable, I guess it's fair to say that it will be hard going for the majority of people.
But, on a positive note, I still like to hold on to the fact that a smile and a laugh does the sole a world of good - and is one of the few thing that you don't get taxed on (yet!). So as hard as things get, I will try to smile as much as I can along with a cheeky wink - because, as they say, the best things in life are free.......
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-politics-11579979
As if life is not hard enough already - constantly tightening the purse strings, cutting out as many luxuries and personal items as possible, paying over the odds for, well, just about everything out there and now it looks like it is about to get alot worse for the average person who lives month to month on a budget.
I'm sure that this will have absolutely no effect on people on a high wage salary and the chancellor has put measures in place to protect people on a low income, but what about the average Londoner who doesn't qualify as a low-income earner but still struggles through every day life...
I think the future is looking very bleak and I feel especially sorry for all those working in the public sector who will be affected by the 490,000 planned job loses - it kind of puts the recent strikes by the TFL into perspective!
After seeing the proposals, I guess I should be lucky that I managed to get on the property ladder before the recession started and that I have a relatively stable-ish job, but who knows what the future will hold. For the foreseeable, I guess it's fair to say that it will be hard going for the majority of people.
But, on a positive note, I still like to hold on to the fact that a smile and a laugh does the sole a world of good - and is one of the few thing that you don't get taxed on (yet!). So as hard as things get, I will try to smile as much as I can along with a cheeky wink - because, as they say, the best things in life are free.......
Saturday 16 October 2010
Lazy Days.....
I've been saying for ages now that I would love to have a nice lazy weekend at home, nothing planned, no housemate, just total freedom to roam the house and do nothing amidst the chaos that has become my life - and this weekend it has finally landed. Am I loving it? I am already bored out of my mind and it is only Saturday night........
I've been to Tesco's shopping, went for a five mile walk (just for the hell of it!), tidied up the house, been weeding out the garden, had a mad ten minutes with the cat and even managed an afternoon nap listening to the radio.
I feel so guilty sitting down doing nothing - how do people sit for a whole day on the sofa and just watch TV? I do love the feeling that I know I don't actually have to do these things and can take my time without rushing around trying to fit it in, but at the same time I would love to be able to just switch off and have no guilt for doing so.
I am coming to the conclusion that maybe I am a typical woman, in that I am never satisfied with what I have got and the grass will always looks greener on the other side. Or then again, maybe I just don't have it in my character to be a lazy git.....
When I'm hectic and hardly get to spend time at home, I want so badly to have a night on the sofa doing sweet FA, but then when I am home I want to be out doing stuff to keep from getting bored and idle.
Oh well, I guess I'll just have to make myself another cuppa for the umpteenth time today and enjoy the X Factor - but I do feel another walk coming on tomorrow morning............
I've been to Tesco's shopping, went for a five mile walk (just for the hell of it!), tidied up the house, been weeding out the garden, had a mad ten minutes with the cat and even managed an afternoon nap listening to the radio.
I feel so guilty sitting down doing nothing - how do people sit for a whole day on the sofa and just watch TV? I do love the feeling that I know I don't actually have to do these things and can take my time without rushing around trying to fit it in, but at the same time I would love to be able to just switch off and have no guilt for doing so.
I am coming to the conclusion that maybe I am a typical woman, in that I am never satisfied with what I have got and the grass will always looks greener on the other side. Or then again, maybe I just don't have it in my character to be a lazy git.....
When I'm hectic and hardly get to spend time at home, I want so badly to have a night on the sofa doing sweet FA, but then when I am home I want to be out doing stuff to keep from getting bored and idle.
Oh well, I guess I'll just have to make myself another cuppa for the umpteenth time today and enjoy the X Factor - but I do feel another walk coming on tomorrow morning............
Thursday 14 October 2010
Where art thou summer......
You spend so long wishing and waiting, counting down the months until you can feel your toes starting defrost and secretly dreading getting your white pins out but looking forward to it all the same...... then before you know it, summer is over in a flash and the dreaded winter months are upon us once again.
I'm sure it's all psychological but it just feels like winter lasts forever and then we get about three weeks of sunshine before being delved into Vitamin D deficiency again....and is it just me, or does it feel like it's getting colder alot earlier this year? I'm sure last year I didn't actually turn my heating on until November but I've already had it on three times and it's only the beginning of October!
Gone is the morning sunshine, warm weather permitting lunches al-fresco & pleasant journeys home from work - instead now we have pitch black darkness in the morning, cold winds with grey skies and almost pitch black evening journeys home (which will change to total pitch black after the clocks go back next week....)
As I'm getting my scarf, gloves, hat & winter coat ready for another cold spell I am already thinking, 'where oh where has the summer gone' the same as every year that has come to pass!
I'm sure it's all psychological but it just feels like winter lasts forever and then we get about three weeks of sunshine before being delved into Vitamin D deficiency again....and is it just me, or does it feel like it's getting colder alot earlier this year? I'm sure last year I didn't actually turn my heating on until November but I've already had it on three times and it's only the beginning of October!
Gone is the morning sunshine, warm weather permitting lunches al-fresco & pleasant journeys home from work - instead now we have pitch black darkness in the morning, cold winds with grey skies and almost pitch black evening journeys home (which will change to total pitch black after the clocks go back next week....)
As I'm getting my scarf, gloves, hat & winter coat ready for another cold spell I am already thinking, 'where oh where has the summer gone' the same as every year that has come to pass!
Friday 8 October 2010
Simple Life
Having returned from holiday almost two weeks ago, I am still suffering from some post-holiday blues and sitting at my desk thinking 'there must be more to life....'
The destination for my holiday was Java and Bali in Indonesia - I felt like doing something out of my comfort zone and have a totally different holiday experience than sitting on a beach for two weeks in Spain - and I can definitely say that it was an amazing experience!
I had a few people ask me before I went, 'Why Java? It's a developing country, they're really poor and it's filthy dirty' and whilst they maybe poor material wise, they certainly are not poor in generosity, human spirit and kindness and it was the most beautiful Island I have ever been to.
Americans aside, I have never met a nation that takes such pride in their Country. Everywhere I went people stopped to say hello, the children were all smiling and playing in the streets and what little they had they was willing to offer to others. It certainly made me ashamed to think of the streets of Britain where no one communicates, people pick fights for no other reason than that they are bored, they don't believe in sharing with others and most people don't even know who their neighbours are.
If there was ever an image for 'the best things in life are free' then the locals that I met in Indonesia definitely fit the bill and opened my eyes to the fact that the simple things in life are all that really matter.
You come into this world with nothing and you leave with nothing, but it's nice to make people smile and be loved along the way.
The destination for my holiday was Java and Bali in Indonesia - I felt like doing something out of my comfort zone and have a totally different holiday experience than sitting on a beach for two weeks in Spain - and I can definitely say that it was an amazing experience!
I had a few people ask me before I went, 'Why Java? It's a developing country, they're really poor and it's filthy dirty' and whilst they maybe poor material wise, they certainly are not poor in generosity, human spirit and kindness and it was the most beautiful Island I have ever been to.
Americans aside, I have never met a nation that takes such pride in their Country. Everywhere I went people stopped to say hello, the children were all smiling and playing in the streets and what little they had they was willing to offer to others. It certainly made me ashamed to think of the streets of Britain where no one communicates, people pick fights for no other reason than that they are bored, they don't believe in sharing with others and most people don't even know who their neighbours are.
If there was ever an image for 'the best things in life are free' then the locals that I met in Indonesia definitely fit the bill and opened my eyes to the fact that the simple things in life are all that really matter.
You come into this world with nothing and you leave with nothing, but it's nice to make people smile and be loved along the way.
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